Today, was one of those reminders not too hold on too tight to the things in my life. My friend, who was also my ex boyfriend, is someone I absolutely love and adore. We are actually giving each other the time to work on ourselves, but I believe we never really broke up. He never stopped caring about me and I never stopped caring about him. However we did technically break up because we started seeing other people only to come to the realization that we both missed the company and companionship we shared.
I believe that one of the reasons we broke up was because I wanted to be invited to every little thing he did and I would get mad if he didn’t tell me where he was going. This weekend he had plans to go to Flagstaff with a couple of friends he plays disc golf with, he had invited me, but I couldn’t go because of the 8 hour DUI class I had today. Last night, I was thanking God that he decided to stay with me so that we could spend some time together, but I secretly knew he still wanted to go. Low and behold, he texts me this morning saying ” I really wanna go to flagstaff”. I know my baby and he always says stuff, but is always the go with the flow type person. Anyways, I was very proud of myself because I did not react with anger or frustration, instead I simply said go and encouraged him to go with lots of love and sincerity.
When we are in relationships, I have come to the understanding that they must be nurtured, but not so much that you smother one another. Even though it is a relationship you are still two people who are individuals living a life that is harmonious and luscious with prosperity! Never loose yourself just because you are sharing your life with someone else. Remember what it means to share.
With all my love,